I wish....You wish....
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
I wish, I can take away all your pain when you are sick, and let the pain be on me instead....
I wish, I can take away whatever sufferings you will have in your life........
I wish, I can always be your Favorite Mommy no matter who comes into your life later.........
I wish, I can always be there to protect you and help you stand up when you fall............
I wish, I will always be the first person you run to whether you are sad or happy........
I wish, you will always let me cuddle, kiss and hug, no matter at what age you are.........
But most of all, I wish, you will always be happy and healthy in your life because this matter most to Mommy....
You wish, I can always be at home with you all the time and do not have to work...... (and it's my wish too)...
You wish, I can take you to Disneyland and see snow every year.......
You wish, I will never find out whenever you tell lies to get yourself out from trouble....... (although Mommy knows EVERYTHING)
You wish, I can give you a sibling NOW and not ask you to wait till you are 6.........
You wish, I will never be angry with you no matter what wrong you have done..............
You wish, I will never go to Heaven even when I am sick or at old age..............
But most of all, you wish, Mommy will love you ETERNITY.... (and your wish has been granted)
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Turning 5 too soon!
Friday, October 9, 2009
It has now been more than 5 months since my last blog. Somehow, since the incident that happened to my auntie, I couldn't bring myself to write anything. Many times, there were things on Clarissa that I wanted to document out, but I just couldn't bring myself to write. But today, somehow, somewhat I feel like updating this blog again. Perhaps, I am afraid that if I don't do this, in years to come, I may forget the nice little things that had happened to my little girl.....
Clarissa will be turning 5 soon. I sometimes cannot believe that time are flying so fast, that she is no longer the little baby that I used to carry in my arms... although sometimes I still ask her to pretend to be one :) ... In a way, she is still my little baby, especially at times when she let me cradled her, and pretended to cry like a newborn, when I asked her to. A part of me is so happy to see that she is growing into an active and mischevious little young lady, but another part of me misses the fact that she might soon be too independent for me to treat her like a baby anymore.
She is still the sensitive little girl though, especially when it comes to her emotions. Like the other day, she was looking at a butterfly on the floor, when a naughty little girl suddenly stepped on it, killing the butterfly. She was very upset and sad by the behavior of this little girl, that she came to me in tears, telling me she is very mad at the girl for doing that. She asked me where the butterfly will go, and I have to tell her that it will go to Heaven. She understood that, going to Heaven means, you will never see the thing or the person ever again. This incident traumatized her so much, that she kept asking me and her Daddy to promise, that we will not go to Heaven and leave her here.
It broke my heart to hear that...... I wanted to explain to her that nobody will lives forever, but I guess at her age now, it will not be possible for her to understand. And so, I tell myself, I must be healthy enough to live to the day where she will come to understand that, sooner or later, everybody goes to Heaven.... but no matter where Mommy is, she will always be her guardian angel forever...
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Mother's Day will not be the same again....
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
"Clarissa, come and say goodbye to Great Grand Auntie, as she has gone to heaven", I told her last Wednesday. The term "Great Grand Auntie" sounded so old, but in actual fact, my auntie is only 49 years old... I explained to Clarissa that going to heaven means she has gone up there to be with God, and will never be able to come back. She seemed to understand, because the same thing happened to Kung Kung (my dad) as well.
It was indeed a very very sad day for all of us, as my Moi Yee (a nickname for my auntie) passed away suddenly. Especially when Mother's Day is just around the corner, with her children already planned what to give and how to celebrate that special day.
I have asked myself many times this past week - What is Mother's Day when Mother is no longer around?? - This same question must have been repeatedly asked by her children as well. As a mother myself, I can't help having this great deep sadness if I am not able to celebrate this special day with my children ever again. This must have been how Moi Yee would have felt now. No mother would ever want to leave their children to fend for themselves. I have never had motherly love from young, and somehow Moi Yee had filled in that gap... She had always been my sister's and my first priority whenever she comes home to grandma's house for holiday, and having nothing to look forward to now seems to make me feel very empty....
I wish I could help lessen the pain the children are going through ... but I know only time will heal, and no matter what, things will never be the same again. All I can do now is to support and care for them more and hopefully, this will ease their pain a little.
With Mother's Day around the corner, I wish and hope that all children will appreciate their mother more, and all mothers to appreciate their children as much... because there are people out there who hope and pray that they can have their mother with them to celebrate this day but never had a chance...
May your soul rest in peace, Moi Yee, and may you look upon your children at all times....
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A Simple Song
Saturday, April 18, 2009
"Mommy mommy I love U
U know that I really do
And I know U love me too
So I sing for U"
A very simple song, simple lyrics, simple music... but enough to warmth Mommy's heart ... And you seem to know that Mommy loves it when you sing this song to me... And so, you sing this to me everyday... sometimes a few times each day... I especially like it the minute I opened my eyes in the morning and all I hear and see, is you smiling at Mommy, and singing this beautiful song to me...
And you will be extremely happy when Mommy replies you....
"Baby baby I love U
U know that I really do
And I know U love me too
So I sing for U"
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My Crazy BB
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Have you ever come across a child who will cry and scream when it's time for her to finish school? Well, Clarissa is one...
Today, daddy was complaining to me that when he picked her from school, she refused to follow him. For some reason, she is very fond of her new teacher, and decided to stay back in class just for that teacher. When daddy tried to convince her that she can still see and play with her new teacher tomorrow, she decided to practise her "invisible leg" on him, leaving daddy very angry and frustrated, but yet, wouldn't dare to punish her in front of her teachers :) So, daddy did what he thought best - complained to mommy!
When I came home, I questioned her on why she behaved that way, and what was so great about this new teacher (whom she told me she loves best - by the way, the teacher just joined yesterday).
She explained to me that she wanted to stay back because she will miss her new teacher when she comes home (she doesn't even remember her new teacher's name). I told her that she could see her again tomorrow, but she said - "But mommy, this teacher is only here for a few days because after that she will have to leave to continue her study" - and that's when I understand her concern.
All she had wanted was to spend more time with her new favorite teacher before she leaves, but because daddy didn't get this point, she threw her tantrum and showed him a little bit of her kung fu :) She also told me the reason why she likes this teacher so much is because she will answer all her questions (according to her class teacher, she asked "too many" questions sometimes), and told off a boy who disturbed her when she complained to her. In other words, what she was trying to make me understand is, this new teacher gave her 100% attention and that was why she immediately became her favorite teacher.... isn't she easy to bribe?!?
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She Bites!!!
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
I haven't realise how long I have stopped posting until today, when a friend (a regular blogger) reminded me.... Inspired by him ;) who also has been quiet for some time but started his blog again today, I decided to catch up on what has been happening to my dear daughter.
First, let's talk about the incident that happened last week in school... I never realised what a little tiger she can be until this happened.....
Apparently there was this little boy who kept disturbing and irritating her during music class. According to the teacher, she was maintaining her cool for some time until she couldn't stand him anymore, and the next thing you know, she took a bite right at his chest!! Don't ask me why it has to be in that position, instead of the normal position where kids will bite like the hands or legs. She bit so hard until there was a teeth mark there. It also shows how angry she must have been.
Don't get me wrong, the reason I blog this, is not because I am proud of her doings. Like what I mentioned from the start, the main reason for my blogs is to hope that one day Clarissa will get to read what Mommy has documented for her. I am sure she wouldn't mind knowing that she was ferocious little thing (like Mommy, I'm sure a lot of you who know me agreed with me)...
And the moral of the incident... "Don't mess with my Clarissa, she bites"..... :-)
****just for the sake of your reading pleasure, I, of course reprimanded her. I didn't let her get away with this although it wasn't entirely her fault. And she understood after I reason with her, that, no matter how the other party provoked her, she wasn't supposed to use her teeth to fight back****
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