"Clarissa, come and say goodbye to Great Grand Auntie, as she has gone to heaven", I told her last Wednesday. The term "Great Grand Auntie" sounded so old, but in actual fact, my auntie is only 49 years old... I explained to Clarissa that going to heaven means she has gone up there to be with God, and will never be able to come back. She seemed to understand, because the same thing happened to Kung Kung (my dad) as well.
It was indeed a very very sad day for all of us, as my Moi Yee (a nickname for my auntie) passed away suddenly. Especially when Mother's Day is just around the corner, with her children already planned what to give and how to celebrate that special day.
I have asked myself many times this past week - What is Mother's Day when Mother is no longer around?? - This same question must have been repeatedly asked by her children as well. As a mother myself, I can't help having this great deep sadness if I am not able to celebrate this special day with my children ever again. This must have been how Moi Yee would have felt now. No mother would ever want to leave their children to fend for themselves. I have never had motherly love from young, and somehow Moi Yee had filled in that gap... She had always been my sister's and my first priority whenever she comes home to grandma's house for holiday, and having nothing to look forward to now seems to make me feel very empty....
I wish I could help lessen the pain the children are going through ... but I know only time will heal, and no matter what, things will never be the same again. All I can do now is to support and care for them more and hopefully, this will ease their pain a little.
With Mother's Day around the corner, I wish and hope that all children will appreciate their mother more, and all mothers to appreciate their children as much... because there are people out there who hope and pray that they can have their mother with them to celebrate this day but never had a chance...
May your soul rest in peace, Moi Yee, and may you look upon your children at all times....
